So I got back from my trip and I had a 4 more days of vacation, I decided that I need to organize the whole house and get ready for our new baby. I had this surge of energy and I was tearing up my home. I was throwing things junk away and organizing closets. I got the baby girl clothes out of storage and I was doing laundry like a mad woman. Hubs was not really in to the cleaning and organizing mood as I was. He was a bit of a sourpuss when I asked him to move furniture into and out of rooms. All I knew is that I needed it to be done all in those 4 days. I am glad to say that I got pretty much most of the stuff done but as I was going through the days and I felt like such a burden... I turned a bit sad and anxious.
This time with 3 kids and a new baby, my mother will not be helping me out this time. With every child, she was here with us and she was such a huge help to me. She cooked, cleaned and was just a helping hand. There is something about giving birth that you want to be with your mother. I know Hubs will do all in his power to take care of me but I know that he'll have a bit of a hard time with the 3 kids as it is. Also, financially, we are really tight so paying for extra help is not an option for us. Anxiousness of not knowing if we can handle the stress... Then I sit in prayer and I feel this sense of comfort. That moment of sadness and anxiousness faded and I am comforted in knowing that God is sovereign and I will get through it . It may be messy at times but we will get through it.
I just need to do my part. Prepare for the baby and get my house in order. Also, this time around... I will let labor come and not be to obsessed with it . We'll see how I do with that.
Can't forget with Puppy.
I asked my doctor to induce me on my due date. She insisted that unless I have a medical condition , I should wait at least a week after my due date for induction but she said she'll put me on the list. I don't think she thought they'd call me but they did. As I lay in the hospital bed, my md comes in and looks at my chart and then she asks me, " so what is the reason for this induction?" I was so thrown off by the question but I was able to muster out, " Umm... because I want this baby out of me!" As I said that I felt so selfish. Funny... how I wanted to be in control. I hope that my change in attitude is due to my spiritual growth.
3 comments:
that's great that you got all of that done. nothing like a little spring cleaning to give yourself a feeling of accomplishment.
i'll pray that this baby comes out sooner than later :)
I know how you're feeling with the nesting thing, unlike my last pregnancy. You just want to get everything done and ready...it feels good to throw things away and organize. :)
I too want this perfect labor and be in control, but we have to give it up to God. Will be praying for you and that you won't have to be induced and that all goes well after the delivery.
i'll be praying for you too -- for a quick delivery and for coping after the baby arrives!
you are a superwoman!
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