BABY BOY!!

J.D. born on May 18th 2007 at 12:47pm.

He weighed 7 LBS 14 OZ 21 INCHES LONG

What a surprise! I was totally expecting another girl. We are doing well. E was totally excited but poor J is taking it pretty hard. For the first 2 days after JD was born, she acted like she was so mad at me. She's starting to warm up to me and the baby.

Recovery is going really well. I can tell that all my sisters at Grace Pointe is praying for me. I'm still taking it easy but I'm just amazed at how quickly I'm feeling like myself. Nursing is going really well... third time around so much better or maybe my heart is in the right place this time. Well, it's been such a blessing.

INDUCTION

My MD office just called. I'm on the induction schedule for Friday. YAY!!! It falls on the day of bro doc's graduation but I wasn't planning on going. I'll just have a baby instead. ha ha ha I'm so excited.

FASTING

I will be making a very important life changing decision in about 2 weeks. I am giving up... tv watching. Many of you may think that this is very easy and that many of you don't care to watch too much tv. However for me, it's a very hard thing especially since I watch so many shows. I really wish that I could get paid to watch these shows and have it some what productive but it has come to my attention that it is something I need to do in order for me to grow.

As my shows will come to an end soon, I am looking forward to this new change of focus. I will be a mother of three now, I will now have even more time with God and I'll have more time to focus on more important things. However a part of me feels that I could just limit the shows I watch because I love the art of theatre. I love how a collaboration of producing, writing and acting can create such emotions or thoughts in a person. So I even though I've contemplated fasting movies too , I feel I can not do that just yet.

I just recently saw a preview of a remake of 'the bionic woman' that will be airing soon. I loved watching the original staring Linsday Wagner. I remember running around in my childhood making the "wang wang wang..." noise and pushing things in slow motion and pretending that it was flying so far away. I know... DORK! I had this sad look on my face and hubs was walking by and asked me what's wrong. I said, "they made a remake of the bionic woman on NBC!" He had this look like SO. I know so stupid of me.

I'm also going to give up secular music as well. This too will be very hard for me . But I'm looking forward to the challenge. I do have this fear of not being hip. Me and my youngest brother (12 years younger than I) would be able to talk about music. We'll see...

Please pray for me that I'd be able to take this time to really grow closer to God and refocus my life. That I may become a Godly woman that is living for Him and Him alone.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

STILL WAITING!!

So I'm over 39 weeks and I am dying to have this baby come into this world. I'm trying to be very patient. I went in for my weekly appointment yesterday and I was hoping that while the MD checked me 1) my water would break 2) I'm close to 10 cm dilated and ready to go. I was so disappointed that neither happened. I then asked her if I could schedule an induction on my due date. She had this look like "you're kidding me!!" SHe said I'd be on a wait list b/c I'm not an urgent case. (She must have never been pregnant before!) And then she added I'm sure you'll go before Wednesday.

Well, I feel like my body likes teasing me. I get these painful contractions but they just end up dying down. They are just taunting me of the pain I'll be facing.

Then I read that babies tend to stay in when the mother is feeling stressed. I don't know how true that is but I've been really tense for the last couple of weeks. So maybe I should go for a mani and pedi and try to relax myself.

Well, maybe I'll have a baby on Mother's day. I would have liked to have been home with all my three children on MD but I really don't have any control. God is really teaching me that He is in control and I really need to submit to his will... not in anxiousness but in contentment. I am reminded how I have such a hard time trusting him. Trust goes hand in hand with Faith... Faith... Faith... hmmmmm (contemplating moment)

Waiting Game!

I am now 38 weeks and I am very eager to deliver this baby. By my third baby, I,now, know when I need to go in, so I am waiting for the PAINFUL contractions to be consistent. My Braxton Hicks gets pretty painful but not consistent enough for me to go in. On Sunday, however, I suffered from severe back pain that would constrict and radiate to the front of my belly. I was thinking I must be having back labor pain but wasn't so sure. Then that night I couldn't sleep at all b/c of the back pain and then I developed a fever and got chills. I should have called the doctor but I was trying to be brave and thought that I must be getting sick and not in labor. i didn't get any better on Monday and I was sweating perfusely all day. My mom insisted that I call the MD. I went into the hospital b/c my MD suspected a kidney infection. I had to give a urine specimen via catheter. (worse than giving birth in my opinion). All the labs came back negative. They said I must be in early labor with just a viral infection (not conclusive).

Well, I'm feeling better and my back pain is not as severe as before. I am feeling very tired and I get these painful contractions once an hour so I'm just waiting for the "OH MY GOSH>>> I NEED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

My mom arrived last week and she's been such a big help to me. I know I can be such a brat to her but she loves me and I am so blessed that she's my mother. She's so funny, too. I've been having such a great time with her and my girls love her so much especially E. E loves her halmoni. She wakes up and the first thing she does is look for halmoni. She's always around her halmoni. So cute. I'm glad that they are bonding. It's so endearing that I wish that my mom could live near us. I understand though that God has a calling for her and I can't be so selfish.

So I'm just waiting for our new baby... in all my achey ness... I wait in prayer....