Nesting

So I got back from my trip and I had a 4 more days of vacation, I decided that I need to organize the whole house and get ready for our new baby. I had this surge of energy and I was tearing up my home. I was throwing things junk away and organizing closets. I got the baby girl clothes out of storage and I was doing laundry like a mad woman. Hubs was not really in to the cleaning and organizing mood as I was. He was a bit of a sourpuss when I asked him to move furniture into and out of rooms. All I knew is that I needed it to be done all in those 4 days. I am glad to say that I got pretty much most of the stuff done but as I was going through the days and I felt like such a burden... I turned a bit sad and anxious.

This time with 3 kids and a new baby, my mother will not be helping me out this time. With every child, she was here with us and she was such a huge help to me. She cooked, cleaned and was just a helping hand. There is something about giving birth that you want to be with your mother. I know Hubs will do all in his power to take care of me but I know that he'll have a bit of a hard time with the 3 kids as it is. Also, financially, we are really tight so paying for extra help is not an option for us. Anxiousness of not knowing if we can handle the stress... Then I sit in prayer and I feel this sense of comfort. That moment of sadness and anxiousness faded and I am comforted in knowing that God is sovereign and I will get through it . It may be messy at times but we will get through it.

I just need to do my part. Prepare for the baby and get my house in order. Also, this time around... I will let labor come and not be to obsessed with it . We'll see how I do with that.

Can't forget with Puppy.

I asked my doctor to induce me on my due date. She insisted that unless I have a medical condition , I should wait at least a week after my due date for induction but she said she'll put me on the list. I don't think she thought they'd call me but they did. As I lay in the hospital bed, my md comes in and looks at my chart and then she asks me, " so what is the reason for this induction?" I was so thrown off by the question but I was able to muster out, " Umm... because I want this baby out of me!" As I said that I felt so selfish. Funny... how I wanted to be in control. I hope that my change in attitude is due to my spiritual growth.

Navy Wedding.

Congratulations A & C !

We went down to VA Beach to attend Hub's nephew's wedding this past weekend. I was uncomfortable but the baby kept nicely inside. I survived it and Hub's did too. The ride down was very long. It took us 6 hours. Our first stop was suppose to be a short McDonald's pick up and restroom stop. Hub's forgot Lamb's shoes so he had to hold her and take her to the potty. We had to take shifts and then after 30 minutes at micky Ds, off we went. We went only for 1 minute and Lamb's shouting out poo-pee. So luckily we past a nice rest area and hubs went to take her. After another 30 minutes, we were off. Luckily we choose to buy a portable dvd player for the girls to watch. However, Puppy was so unhappy. He kept pointing to his seat belt and with these puppy dog eyes , he looked at me as if to say "let me out, let me out". The rehearsal dinner was at 4 pm and at 3:30 pm, it looked very grim. We were going to be late. While Hubs was on the phone with his nephew to let him know that we'd be late, we got pulled over for speeding. It didn't seem like we were going that fast but what can you do? We traveled on Route 13 and it was a long road that went through towns. There were no formal rest areas and it was so hard to wait for rest areas. I ended up going to Mcdonalds and a walmart. I always feel bad using the restrooms with out purchasing anything but I'm 9 months pregnant, what could they say. But at the last stretch... there was no where to go pee and then we were entering the chesapeake bridge and that bridge is long. I ended up peeing in a bucket in our car. I had to go sooo bad.

We got there and we went straight to the rehearsal. Family was all there except those not participating in the wedding. It was going to be an outdoor ceremony overlooking the Bay. It is beautiful. The kids were so excited. Bunny was especially excited to go swimming but we didn't have time that day. She woke up the next day talking about going swimming. We hurriedly got ready and off to the pool we went. The kids swam around. PUPPY. was afraid at first and wrapped himself to me. Then later he loosened up and he had a blast. It made me think that I definitely want a pool in our next home. It was nice walking around in the pool. I felt so light and no pressure.

The wedding was really nice and beautiful. Hub's nephew and his wife are such a beautiful couple. The girls did a great job walking down the aisle and Lamb was loving the dressing up and attending the wedding. She kept saying that she was going to her wedding. Bunny was particularly most interested in dancing on the dance floor. Once the music tempo went up, she asked if she could go dance. No one was on the dance floor and I just said wouldn't want to wait until someone goes up first... She replied"no, and that she really really wanted to dance." I said fine and after her dancing for 5 minutes, her aunt Jayne went and joined her and then her cousins. She didn't stop to take a break... she dance all night. Hmm... she is a lot like her mommy. I really wanted to dance but I really couldn't stand on my feet. I still enjoyed watching everyone.

It's my MIL's first grandson to get married and it was an emotional affair. As the groom's mother danced with the groom, my MIL and SIL all looked on with tears in their eyes. It was sweet to see and as the dance came to an end they rushed in on the couple and gave a huge group hug. It was such a sweet sweet sight.

We had a fun time. So much fun that we stayed an extra day to hang out at the pool and beach again. The kids really really enjoyed themselves.

Boy's First Hair Cut

BEFORE

AFTER

Last Saturday, PUPPY got his very first haircut at a kid's hair cuttery. They had little cars, animals, and motorcycles for kids to sit in while they cut their hair. It's a really cute place. I'm glad I found it. However, the little boy did not enjoy the experience. We put him in the police car and he's jiggling the steering wheel until he sees the woman coming at him. He lunged for me and the woman was very experienced. She asked me to hold him in the salon chair. I'm holding on to him and while he's squirming and wailing in my arms, she was able to give my son a nice crew cut. He looks so refreshed with the haircut. Hopefully, next time won't be such an ordeal.

The woman asked me if I wanted to have a piece of his hair, I quickly responded no. and she looked at me in a shocking way, "You, don't want his hair!?" "oh, yes, please..." I responded. I didn't want her to think I was a bad mother. I kept a piece of Bunny's hair from her first cut but I ended up losing it b/c I never got around in making a formal baby book for her. I'm just not very good at stuff like that. I don't know... it's a bit odd to hold on to hair, I think. I hate cutting hair at home because I hate all the hairs all over the place and to keep it... It kind of grosses me out.

Well, I have Puppy's and I will just store it into his photo album. I wonder if I'll appreciate it when he's all grown up.

Well, I'm glad I gave him a haircut because this summer is starting out so hot and humid.

V-DAY

Yesterday, Hubs went and got a little procedure done in a sensitive area. I was anticipating him to be in a lot of pain but he's been pretty much pain free. He's hobbling around but he says it's a little uncomfortable but no pain. What a blessing. I was worried that I'd have have to take care of 3 kids and take care of a patient. I didn't realize how much he takes care of me because it seemed like a role reversal. I cooked dinner served him.. brought him ice... well I tended to his needs but after a couple hours, I think he felt was weirded out and couldn't take me serving him. I'm sure it's because I'm hobbling around as well trying to run up and down the stairs with a big belly. He felt bad. If I wasn't pregnant maybe he'd be milking it or maybe not. Times like this... I realize how blessed I am to have him.

This morning I was so prepared to wake up with the kids and tend to their every needs. But I woke up to Bunny and Lamb fighting and I realized that Bill got up with them and fed them breakfast and let me sleep in. Again, So blessed.

Bunny was very curious about the type of "surgery" her father went through. She was so worried and she was trying really hard to be a good nurse. It was so cute to see. We told her that it was not serious and that it's just very tiny cuts daddy will be left with. She asked where the cuts would be and we told her the truth and she said," EW!!!!!!!!!!! gross... that's so funny!" hahahaha she really is too funny.

While Hubs was undergoing his procedure, I couldn't help feeling a bit sad. I know that with four children, we are absolutely done having children. I guess, it's the finality of it. It's no difference than taking any other forms of birth control but I guess, I feel a bit odd about altering the body to prevent something that is a gift from God. Are we selfish? But then I know that this is the best course for us. We've thought and prayed about it for a long time and we know that this is the best for us. So really there is no reason to keep thinking about it because it is done.

Russian Roulette

So I have this dilemma...

Hub's nephew is getting married at the end of June at Virginia Beach. They asked the girls to be flower girls and of course, they are tickled with joy. However, I will be entering my 36th week. I will be considered full term and there is a possibility of going in to labor anytime after the 35 th week. I delivered bunny at 37th week and lamb at 38 th week. puppy was the child that didn't want to come out until my 40th week. The thing about giving birth is that it's so unpredictable.

I asked two doctors about the situation. One was adamantly saying that I should not go. (she really scared me) Then another was saying just see how I feel and if I'm up to traveling, she thinks it'll be okay. But I can't help being a bit nervous about it. Hubs said to take our medical records but I don't want to deliver anywhere but my hospital. I told him if I start going in to labor we are dropping everything and making the 5 hour trip up to Philly. He wasn't very keen on that idea. Who really delivers at their 36th week? That's still really early, right?

moms, who read me... when did you deliver and would you take the risk in going?

Bunny Turns 5

She's also graduate from Pre-K . She'll be starting up elementary school in the fall. I hope that I can be on top of all the homework and follow- up on memos and stuff. It was hard enough keeping up with stuff for her 2 1/2 hour a day pre school.

Bunny likes this boy, Garrett, at school. I've heard her talk about him through out the year but I didn't pay too much attention to it until I was able to observe her class. One time, when we were talking about marriage, she said that Garrett is a nice boy and that she's going to marry him. Of course, Hubs said she can't marry anyone. She was fine with that too. They were doing egg drops outside and all the kids were all gathered around. Garrett comes to school and I hear my Bunny scream, " GARRETT!" and she's hugging him and she was like all over him.

Well, after Bunny's graduation, Garrett's parents invited a few parents over for some treats and when I told bunny that we were going to Garrett's house she screamed so loud. She was so excited. then as we got out of the car in front of his house and we were walking to the front door. I saw another Bunny's classmates car. I said, "oh, bunny, your favorite friend Molly is here!" She stops walking and says, "why is she here?" She was sad... she wanted garrett all to herself. me and hubs started cracking up. Wow, Bunny's all possessive of Garrett. We told the mom because they know about the "thing" between the two of them and she goes... "molly was the same way" ah!! we had no idea there was this love triangle going on. we had a good laugh about it.

Swift Performance

Caught this on the net and I thought wow that was some performance from a young girl. Now I can't get the tune out of my head... had to buy the song via itunes. Taylor Swift is her name and I think she won best new female artist at the country awards. Quite deserving...

Korean Dramas

Over one month ago I was introduced to this site. It is for free where you can download and watch korean dramas. I've been a bit obsessed watching korean dramas. It is crazy. I just can't watch one episode and limit myself ... it's all there so I just start clicking the next episode and before I know it I'm staying up really late to watch these. Hubs would walk by and say, " you know you can't do this after the babies born, right?" AH!! I'm starting to love the pregnancy card. I'm only doing this because I'm pregnant...

When I mentioned this to my Women's group, there were many eager to know about this site and then there were many saying negative things about Korean dramas. Fills your head with false beliefs. I know that Korea is big on money and power. They have a false view on romantic love...

Well, I watched one with 20 episodes and it was soooooooooooooo good in the beginning and then it dragged and the ending was so blah. But because of my behavior no matter how bad it got ... I just have to watch how it ends. I have found that the site is not good for me. Soooooooo, I'm letting it go. Even though my korean has gotten so much better, I know that I can't afford to just sit around and watch korean videos. I'll just watch my movies as they come from netflix. hahahahah