What can I say? I can't seem to shake the teeny bopper in me.

I've been watching this new show on ABC called "Brothers and Sisters". You may recognize some of the cast... Sally Fields ( mega movie star)... Calista Flockhart (Ally McBeal), Rachel Griffiths (6 feet under)... Bethazar Getty...Ron Rifkin ( the old guy from Alias)...

I really like it. Everytime I watch it, I'm encouraged to have a big family. I just love the relationships between the siblings and the children's relationship to the mother . The writing is smart and witty. Does anyone remember the family drama picket fences? I use to love that show even though now, I don't remember much of the show but I remember loving it at the time.

I was surprised that no one on the show has been nominated for anything or the show itself. I like it... and hope that it gets renewed. I know, I have enough shows to watch...

E got her teeth work done and we were so upset that she had to go through what she had to go through. She was really brave and the first 2 days were agony for her but she's all smiles and running around today.

She had the procedure done at ST. Christopher Children's Hospital. Initially, I was a little nervous because I knew where the hospital was located. It's not in a very good part of Philly. I was envisioning a run down and crummy hospital. I was tempted to ask the dentist if we could to go to Children's Hospital of Philly instead, but I didn't. We arrived to st chris and I was pleasantly surprised. i can be so narrow minded sometimes. The hospital was really nice and the staff that took in E was wonderful.

I got to see E high on Valium. She was hilarious. I wished I had a video camera to capture her silly behavior. I hope that is the last and only time she's ever high on anything.

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. it really was a comfort to us.

24

24 premiered last night and it didn't disappoint. Another 2 hours tonight... can't wait. I was so excited to see Regina King. She's one great actress. I'm trying to predict who's evil...

Last year, at the Emmy's and Golden Globes , 24 won best show and cast ensemble. Golden Globes are tonight and I'm sure that Keifer and the show will win. It's one great show.

Next week, E is going to get all her teeth capped. I feel like I failed as a parent. E developed a nasty habit. Drinking juice to bed. I heard from many people that it's bad and I remembered my younger brother having to get his two front teeth pulled because of drinking juice to bed. I never imagined that I'd have to take my 3 year old daughter to the hospital , have her under go anesthia and get all her teeth capped. I thought brushing her teeth and giving her fluoride would be sufficient to fight off cavities.

The procedure was originally planned for march 7th but 2 weeks ago, she's been complaining of teeth pain. We called our dentist and they bumped it up. I'm thankful but I'm so scared. I wished that I was strong enough to deny her. "Accidental parenting"... I am queen.

When I came home and told doc bro about having to cap all her teeth. he said ..."She's going to have blinging teeth. Gold and diamonds... she's going to look like those rappers." Ugh!! He can be so mean. No, I will not get her grillz.

I hope that the procedure will go smooth and she won't be in too much pain.

No drinking juice especially to bed.

Last night, we took the girls to see Disney on Ice. It was really wonderful. E has been so excited and she even brought her tiara but when we got there she refused to wear it. She was looking at all the other girls who were dressed as Cinderella, Belle, Mulan, Jasmine, tinkerbell. I mean, they were dressed to the T. Clothes, accessories, shoes, head gear. The poor kids that insited on wearing the toy shoes were probably regretting it. Their feet looked like they were in pain.

Husband got us front row seats. The ice was only a foot away and we could see everyone so up close. They were great seats. J was so entranced by the whole show. She really enjoyed it. She kept waving ferociously to all the characters and extras. E liked it but for some reason she'll lose interest and only be interested in eating popcorn and the cotton candy. Hmmm! she reminds me of me when I go to a philly's game.

One funny thing happened. They were re-enacting the fight with the prince and dragon from Sleeping Beauty. The dragon was huge and he was running all over the ice and he was coming towards us and E totally freaked. She screamed and lunged for Daddy and screamed, "NO DRAGON!!" Hubby and I just started cracking up.

It was really fun and I really enjoyed it as much as my girls.

Old Times!

Last summer, we went to Rohoebeth Beach with my family. We took a time machine and we spent some time in the past. It was fun but oh so hot.

Urbana 06

So husband went to St. Louis for 5 days for the Urbana conference. He's been growing spiritual for the last 5 months and when SK asked if he'd be interested to go to this conference, husband was hesitant. He then decided to go. It was torture being without him for that long but it was so worth it.

They brought back video footage of the conference and it just seemed so great. Bono from U2 was one of their speakers and they were inspired by his vision to help Aids vicitims. An african princess spoke of her life with AIDS and her faith and she was so moving.

I see a change in Husband and it's something that I never imagined possible. How I forgot the true power of God. How could I have ever doubted?

The day husband came back he was exhausted. Their schedule seemed very grueling. There was absolutely no time for leisure time. It was seminars after seminars and praise and worship twice a day. But even in his tired state he wanted to pray with me and start a bible study that night. Of the 13 years knowing him, I've only prayed with him and study the bible a few times. I don't know why. He'd read his bible and I'd read my bible and we just prayed seperately. I don't know why I was so resistant.

He's so eager to teach me what he learned and I just look at him inspired by his conviction. I want to be an encouragement. I was moved once and I believed anything was possible in HIm but I lost hope somewhere down the line and I just stopped being convicted. I walked away from God and I know that I shouldn't have. I just don't want husband to be hurt and I know that I am not at a point where I fully trust God and I don't want this feeling to deter Husband.

I am sensitive to other people's sin and to my own and I need to just give that up and only look to God. It is so hard for me to be so vulnerable by loving my enemies. That vulnerability is self-inflicted, I'm sure but I can't help feeling this. How can you fully love a person when you know that they hate you? Is there pride in there, too? I am such a weak person and I want to overcome this.

I don't want to be left behind. I need to really let go and trust God.

Sisters,
Please pray for husband that this conviction will remain strong and true. Please pray for me that I may continue to meet with the Lord and He'll give me wisdom and reveal my calling.

My husband told me that a starving child in Africa dies every 18 seconds. Isn't that so sad?