Oldest Sister

We decided to get a triple tandem stoller made by Joovy. It's a 2 seater stroller and a toddler can sit or stand in the back. Having a newborn on her way and Puppy only being 14 months, I knew I had to get a double stroller but then Lamb who is 3 doesn't like walking much. We have a sit and stand stroller that we used often. I got it when Lamb turned 1 and Bunny loved standing and sitting in the back. When Puppy came, both Bunny and Lamb would squeeze in the back of the sitnstand stroller. We got this triple stroller and it is huge. It's extremely long. Hubs was making all these wisecracks about it. The kids were excited as Daddy put it together. They would point to the first seat and they would ask who would sit there. I'd answer, Frog. and then they would ask who sits in the second sit, and I'd say, Puppy. And then who stands in the back and I answer lamb. While they were asking the questions, I'm watching hubs work on the stroller. All of sudden, I hear Bunny slamming things. I hear hubs ask Bunny why she's so upset and then I saw her, she had tears in her eyes. As she said, " I have no where to sit... there's no room for me. ahhhhhhhh!", big tears start falling down her face and then she ran upstairs. It wasn't the first time that she was upset because she was so sensitive. I've been worried so much about Puppy how he would adapt to having a baby. I felt Lamb would be okay because she had Bunny but I realized that Bunny might have a hard time. In my eyes, she's no longer a baby but she still wants to be a baby. She had a phase where she'd do baby talk. It was a bit annoying and I'd correct her every time she did it. I think I need to arrange some mommy and Bunny time after the new baby arrives.

Shot thru the Ear

Lamb got her ears pierced today. We went to the mall to walk around to bring on labor and I know that Lamb's been asking about getting her ears pierced and I asked her if she wanted to get her ears pierced today. Her eyes got big and she said, "oh, yes! I want ears pierce." So off we went. She was getting her ears pierced at the very same place I got my ears pierce over 20 years ago. Of course when she was looking at the earrings, she picks out the very big diamond studs. She's so funny. We picked out white gold studs as her very first pair. She was so good. She didn't cry. She got both lobes pierced at the same time. She was in shock at first . She just sat there and didn't say a word. They quickly gave her a lollipop and I lifted her and I asked her if it hurt. She said it didn't hurt at all. Then I turned to Bunny asked her if she wanted to get her ears pierced she said an adamant and resounding NO!. Bunny is too scared even after Lamb was happy as can be afterward. Oh, well. I know in time, she'll get the courage to get it done.

Still Waiting

So my 38th week came and is going, with no signs of active labor. My body loves to tease though. I'll start cramping and have a few contractions but then after a few hours they wean away. It's so hard this waiting part. I am trying really hard to take this time to reflect and spend time in prayer. I finally feel that I'm in this place of peace and I'm afraid it might be the calm before the storm. How will my spirits hold up in the storm? I can't worry about tomorrow... I shouldn't worry about tomorrow. I need to trust God.

Trusting the Lord is the very thing that I have trouble doing. How do I calm my anxious heart? I have revealed this secret and it is so hard to discipline myself to do. But I have found hope...

Please pray that my labor will be fast and swift and our little girl is healthy...

Uncomfortable and Waiting

I think I've been really good in this waiting for the baby thing. I went for my check up and I'm moving along with being 2 cm dilated and 50% effaced but I can be like that for the next couple of weeks. Last Monday night, I couldn't sleep because I had really painful contractions that were so irregular and I was just waiting for them to develop in to a rhythm. But after 3 hours from 1 to 4 in the morning, I finally was able to get some rest. I really thought I was in labor but of course after 3 babies, I finally know what false labor feels like. Now, only here and there, I'll have some contractions. It's like my body is teasing me. I just have to try and bear through it even though I'm increasingly getting more uncomfortable and in a bit of pain down there. I feel bad because J.D. is still such a baby. He wants to be held and he really needs the comfort of an adult. He can't play on his own. He wants me or hubs sitting with him watching him play. The moment we get up and walk away, he breaks down in to tears. I hope it's phase because when the fourth comes a long, I got no choice but to walk away.

Other news:

Bunny loves playing games but she doesn't like losing. We were playing memory and she won the first 2 games and then the 3rd Lamb actually won and Bunny broke down in to tears. I told her that if she was going to be a sore loser no one will want to play with her and then she cries harder. "but I want to win... i don't like losing. " I say sometimes you win some and sometimes you lose. I said you don't want to be a bad loser. I told her she should always congratulate the loser and mean it. So she half turns to Lamb and mumbles.. "congratulations, Lamb. I'm glad you won. " and then Lamb turns and she goes, " ha-ha, I won and you LOST... hahahah!" and then Bunny looks at me and then she runs up to her room crying.

So today, me and Bunny play this game Trouble. Bunny actually beat me the first round and in this game if you land on your opponets peg, you send them back to the start. She kept landing on me and she actually felt bad. I told her that it's part of the game and that I'm acting sad but I'm really not. She's so cute. After she won the first game, she wanted to play another game so she goes, " mommy, let's play again and I'll let you win and I won't cry this time. " She's so funny.