Back to Work



On Monday, I started my new job. Let me just say... I can't believe that I never applied earlier even when I was working full-time. The environment is so different than a retail setting. It's so laid back and there are no yelling patients in your face and there are no technicians to train and there are no relying on anyone else to get your task completed. I even have a nice cafateria that sells pretty good food. They even have a starbucks. I get a mandatory 30 minute lunch. Before in retail, I worked right through lunch because I couldn't afford being backed up in scripts.

It's been so great.



The training is exhausting though and I thought 24 hours a week would be good but just having to go there to train for the next 2 months will be a bit trying. JD still wakes up 3 times a night to feed and I don't want hubs to feed a bottle because I'd still like to nurse a bit longer so I'm going in for an 8 hour day a zombie. I'm good pretty much the beginning of the morning but towards late afternoon, I'm just so tired. I have to keep telling myself only 2 months and then I'll be home.

They don't have a set lactation room so I'm pumping breastmilk in their copier machine room. It's not a high traffic area but one friend who is lactating that she had an awkward encounter with someone who kept knocking after my friend said she'll be done in a minute but that person kept on knocking. She was so annoyed. She told the supervisor and I guess that it was resolved because I've been pumping in there and no one interrupted me. It is a pain and I'm hoping that my milk supply will not suffer. Yesterday, I skipped a pumping session so I had to pump longer at lunch and it only left me 10 minutes for lunch. It takes literally 5 minutes to get to the cafeteria. So I was engulfing my food but I notice that because I'm part-time they were so lax. I came back 10 minutes late and no one said anything. hmmmmmm Very nice.

The one thing I'm realizing is that I can no longer be laid back with my schedule at home. I got to buckle down and even if I feel so tired I got to get what I need to do done. So on my days off, it seems I have a list of to do list that I can not afford to procastinate. It'll be a big change but it'll be a good habit change for me.

Overall, it's been good. Hubs has been amazing. I thought he'd beg me to quit when I got home from my first day. He was in a good mood and the kids had no injuries. He did keep telling me if that I didn't like it, I could quit. I told him that it was great. The job itself is a bit montaneous but I'll take that over crazy anyday.

here's the new Bionic Woman

My 2 year old thought it would be fun taking her mother's panty liners and sticking them here. She cracks me up.

Shoes

We went to the mall, today. We thought it would be fun to take our three children and shop. I wanted to celebrate my new job by purchasing some new clothes. The last time I worked was over 4 years ago and I was at my pre-pregnancy weight. Since I've tried to lose the baby weight and failed , I had given away pretty much all of my professional clothing and I am in need of new clothes. SO off to the mall we went. I did some good shopping. It seems like fall clothes are coming in and the summer clothes are on sale.

After an hour, it got a bit tough. My girls became a little wild. I was looking at shoes and J decided to throw her shoes off and run all over the shoe section trying on flats, wedged shoes, and stilettos. She had a bit of a hard time walking around in stilettos. I noticed she loved shoes. I had to run after her trying to put back the shoes she'd try on and leave for another pair.

I wanted to have some family time outside of the home but I think next time, I'll shop on my own. I definitely won't be shopping with three kids on my own. But I did imagine how fun it would be to shop with my 2 girls when they are old enough. That will be fun for sure.

I got the job. :)

Job Interview

I had a job interview today. I've always contemplated going back to work and I wasn't planning to go back this soon but a stay at home position opened up and they are hard to come be. So I called and got an interview.

One of hubs co-workers got hired 10 days ago for the same position and she got hired on the spot. So I half expected them to hire me on the spot but they didn't. So I was a bit bummed about that. He told me that there only a few spots left and he has a few more interviews and they'll let me know next week. Inside I thought... he doesn't like me, he really doesn't like me. I wanted to cry. I think not working for the last 2 years may have hurt me.

If I really don't get the job, it will be what God intended. But... the feeling of rejection is the worst. I take it so personally. It's funny. I wanted to go into acting and in that business you have to have a thick skin because rejection is inevitable. Good thing I didn't pursue that career path. I'm still hoping to get the job and if I do, my family is going to be going through a lot of changes. I hope it won't be too hard for the girls. It's part time so hopefully it won't be too hard juggling work and family.