As the new year approaches, I have been thinking about what kind of changes, I'd like to make. For the past few years, I've been very cynical about making new year resolutions. I have failed every resolution, i've vowed to uphold. What makes this year different?

That is a very good question. I've made recent revelations about myself and how much I don't like the person I've become. I've been wallowing in my mistakes and focusing on all the bad things in my life. I realized I've been wasting so much time and energy on the things that really doesn't matter.

I've been so inspired to be a faithful Christian. I am so weak though. I try to stand strong but anger and bitterness plagues my heart. I've always been an emotional person and a hot head. I need to learn to be able to stay calm and to really think through situations. Also, I need to really think before I speak. Words are so dangerous.

So what makes this year different? I think, my heart is different... it's willingness to change. My heart was not willing before but it is now. I was waiting for something to move me but it was me that needed to initiate the move.

I will meet with Him everyday, I will sing His praises everyday, I will trust in Him everyday, I will love Him everyday, I will have faith in Him everyday, I will rely on Him everyday, I will learn everyday, I will listen everyday.